Hello reddit. I have a serious problem. I have suddenly started to panic and shake my head
Ok reddit hi, new account here. I know its really petty to say this but I'm honestly really really fcking upset with myself. I feel like crying, i just wanna lie down and cry idk why this has started to happen to me.
Ok here is the story.
I have been playing cs since source when I was very young (8 or 9 years old), played in csgo beta, and currently sitting at 4300+ hours played in csgo.
I have been playing mm since it came out. I have been global and supreme for as long as i can remember. I don't want to sound like some god because im not, but i just want to get across that im not a noob and have good experience and decent aim. I am entry frag and (used to) perform very well.
Now. Let's go to the start last month. I decided to try faceit for the first time. I played a few games and loved it. I was level 6 and was really enjoying the competitiveness of it. I was playing extremely well.
Then one fucking day, my whole gameplay just... changes. It's not like I was doing bad, I was still top fragging, it's not like I was playing against better players, it was to do with me.
Suddenly, every time I see an enemy on my screen, my head tenses up and shakes.
It's like a tremble, the amplitude of my "shakes" aren't huge, but it's like my neck tenses up and head tenses up and my head just has these microshakes every time i see an enemy, and it fucks up my aim massively, to the point that i cannot even focus and pinpoint the enemy.
Best way to describe the effect: you know peripheral aim (just flicking when there is an enemy not where you are looking directly)?
It's like that. All the time. Even if there is an enemy EXACTLY where I am expecting,my head trembles and I cannot focus on the enemy at all.
So I thought: okay.
This is just a slump.
So I took a week HARD BREAK. And by that I mean not looking at csgo reddit, not looking at csgo twitch streams, NOTHING ABOUT CSGO AT ALL.
Then, I come back for my first game (I went to into mm because I thought it would bring be back to the non stress environment).
AND NOW IT'S HAPPENING IN MM TOO.
I GO ON MY SMURF AND I'M STILL TREMBLING (TO PLAY WITH FRIENDS)
I CANNOT PLAY THIS GAME WITHOUT HEAD TREMBLING ANYMORE
please help me.
i tried so many techniques,
changes in posture, breathing exercises, nothing is helping. every time i see an enemy i tremble and can't hit them, no matter the environment. please help. this is my last resort.
im ssorry for the long wall of text please
please help i love this game and i cant play it any more i dont know what to do please someone help me, anyone if you read this please help
edit: there has been no change in my diet, exercise regimen, external stress
also i am not taking any drugs. (and never have done), no medication either.
BEST WAY TO DESCRIBE MY TREMBLING:
tense your forearm as hard as you can, do you notice your hand trembling? thats what my head feels like