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Name: Manuel
Date of birth:1985-6-26 (26 years old)
Location: Germany, Berlin-Wedding
Gaming race: DotA
Level 6 (2137)
Status: Offline
Last seen:7 months ago
6 months...smell the wind
Created 25th December 2008 23:19 (Updated: 25th December 2008 23:20)

Hellow folks!

Few of me know me and thats prolly the best thing that could happen to me at this point *g*!

For those who have read some of my blogs and are able to count it is obvious, that it is not only christmas, but that in addition to that i quit gaming almost 6 months ago (yeahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaw).

I must admit that the last days in november/first days in december were reaaaaaaaaaaaaaally tempting for me, i honestly thought about attending dh (luckily i didnt get my free days at work :P), or atleast go to a netcaffee to watch the streams, effectively i didnt do either and in retrospect im rather glad it turned out the way it turned out, im still "gaming free" and running around in the so called "real world", needless to mention that the real world is as perverted and unreal as the "virtual world" in almost every aspect, only the graphics better and the in-between-human-stuff feels a little bit different, the rest is quite the same, you get up every morning, take a 45 min ride to your working place (god bless the guy who invented headphones, elseway the noise in public transport would be unbearable) and sit down in front of your pc for 8 hours to do something that isnt really fun, but you have no choice but to do it....

When you come home from work its approximately 6 pm (on a lucky day), and your so sick and tired of using your eyes, that you just wanna sit down in a dark corner and curse the light away, but well life aint working like that (atleast for me), i still attend my therapist and i occasionally visit my "anonymous gamer group" to chat a little bit with other victims and give some tips...yeah, i really give advice to people that try to stop gaming, what a mad world :D.

Im like...exhausted by working 8-9 hour shifts every day and im rather happy, that im without work for 1 month now (need to take care of some health issues), but i must say, im more than happy that i made the decision to stop this gaming madness that was going on in my life, it really increased the value of it!

Right at the moment im doing, what approximately 95% of the people in the christian hemisphere are doing at this time, im sitting around with my family and enjoy the "lovely christmas athmosphere", atleast i get to see my folks again, thats definetly a burner :), gaming-wise the next 3 weeks will be interesting too, i'm attenting a lan with some rl mates, we're going to play cs for a whole weekend, even though im still trying to figure, if i want to waste so much time since its the last weekend with my girlfriend before she goes to either lulea or gothenburg to study for 5 months - im most likely gonna bail on the guys ^_^.

I finally figured out what i am going to do with the few (~60) more years of my life, or atleast the next 3 of them, since i dont wanna combine some wood or some steel to build something that somebody wants im going to attend a university again and study for 3 more years until i get my bachelor (gosh i want the diploma back, srsly!), so i am in "dry towels" as the germans like to say (what a stupid idiom), as a result of that and because i kinda need something to make me able to get the required information and stuff im going to get myself a new laptop - something without a sufficient graphic card and a massively small screen, so it doesnt make me wanna game again (its RLY hard to stop this habit, believe me).

Anyways, im finally over the hard part and im happily looking forward into my future!

I know this is a lot about myself, but i felt like writing a little something since i got a pc here to do so, if you dont like it => burn it ;).

Regards Manuel 'Still Amock' Narinder


p.s. all you swedish folks, i might be able to visit you sometime around april-may, depending on my funds and my time i'm planning a sweden tour since i'll got to visit my girl there anyways (this country has its grip on me...)


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3 Months and running!
Created 14th October 2008 19:21 (Updated: 14th October 2008 19:33)

Hello out there you male and female folkz0rz!

4 days ago i had my 3 month-no-gaming-anniversary and i felt like writing a little something about my last weeks and let you know how stuff is evolving for me and give you a little breakdown about the "time after gaming"....

The first weeks after the cut i had with the gaming were horrible (up to the end of july) i was lacking motivation, i spent basically all my time in bed reading and i felt like i was even more depressed than before...

From the pov i got now, i look with...disgrace on the last 3 years of my life, i lost so much of my personality and the things that make me unique and became a "slave" of the game that i played (dota), it takes a vast amount of time and a lot of thinking energy to "find myself" again, but i think im on the right way and i know, that i start to see the "end of the tunnel", its a very satisfying feeling to see, how well i start to fit in with my social surrounding every day.

4 weeks ago i found a job that pays well enough to live of it, meaning i can pay my rent, buy food, go out and even save a little bit, i see this as one of the biggest steps back into "normal life", it just makes you feel a little more normal (well, im not really normal...).

If i have a lot of time, i still feel the urge to sit down in front of my pc and start playing, but luckily i got no internet at home so i cant...i think this saved my ass a couple of times :D.

I read at the mainpage, that dreamhack winter 08 is coming soon, and i would be a liar, if i'd say that dreamhack winter doesnt ring any nice bells in my head, i had a blast with all those swedes and i miss a lot of you guys, maybe even more than the game that i dont play anymore :).

Gosugamers was a nice place for me for 1 year and i enjoyed working with all of you and i hope i meet some/all of you one day under happier circumstances (maybe sooner than we'll guess :D).


So here goes a shoutout to:

Frida, Jonte, Patrik, Genie <3, Matt <3<3<3<3<3 (Dude come visit me alrdy u fucker), Usagi (Im living in berlin now => close to poland), Roach (your the best), Domi (FAT BASTARD!!!! <3), Frida ;), all the cool GG.net ppl that i forgot to mention and Kusel <3.

This is in no way my last blog or my departure post, but i figured that you guys were my family for more than 1 year and imo you did hell of a job :).



Cya around, if anybody who reads this feels like coming to berlin, give me a call and a 1 week headstart and i gladly welcome you at my place :)

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11 Days and Running
Created 21st July 2008 16:50

Hey there!

As some of you noticed, i stopped gaming and the whole internet thingie around it 11 days ago, wow its unbelievable how slow the time goes by if your not sitting in front of your pc 14-18 hours a day...
Anyways, i experienced a lot of good stuff very shorty after i got over the gigantic level of depression, that came with leaving all the work and friends and my favourite game behind, for 3 days straight i spend 80% of the time in bed reading and pitying myself, but believe it or not, some therapists really know what they are doing, and mine helped me to get on my feet and to start sorting my "shit" out, in only 11 days i managed to get myself a new flat, lose 2 kilos and go out 3 times (thats pretty much for me right there!), im going to a meeting of guys like me once a week and i see them one more time a week when we play beach volleyball together (and yeah, my permadiet pays off perfectly :D), right now the hardest thing for me about not being on the internet like i used to be is the people i talked to and i called my friends lately, that's much worse then missing the game itself, it makes you realize how far you pulled youself out of the social life around you, currently my friends counter in Berlin is somewhere between 0 and 0,5...., but anyways im sure that a little work and dedication will do wonders here.

My sister comes to visit me on wednesday and shes going to stay 2 weeks, 2!!! weeks and shes bringing my bike, so im excited like a little boy right now :D, this is going to be a w e s o m e !

I think the scariest thing of quitting the gaming and the stuff around it was the fear of the boredom, that will take its place, since i suddently have so much time and no clue what to do with it, but i came to see, that life holds plenty of stuff for you to fill and brighten up your day if you only give it a chance. So here goes a shoutout to everybody who thinks he might be a "gaming addict" and is afraid of quitting because he doesnt know what awaits him: Its tough as hell, its boring as hell and you will miss a few people like hell, but after 1 or 2 weeks you will start to see, that the world out there isnt so bad and i think in a couple of weeks i will not be healed, but be back at the place that life holds for me and be a happier and much more satisfied person.


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Not Summer, SUMMER!!!
Created 2nd July 2008 16:46

Yeah, so im sitting here, its approximately 5000°C and im trying to keep a 20 month old child busy and entertained (she actually just fell asleep), this is my first summer in the awesome city Berlin, and i got the feeling that this year will be...special! Sports-wise this summer has already been a great one with the EuroCup, and the Olympic Games are still to come, apart from that the weather is flawless and Berlin is in full green, its dangerous to go outside, because you know you will end up in some park or at a lake/bath, even the nightlife is ownage, even though i only go out like once a month (money issues TT).

Overall it seems to me, like 2008 will be a great year, in and off the pc (DIABLO 3 OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMG), and im looking forward to the next 5 months, may they be as good as the first 7!

Greetings Amock

p.s. i didnt forget about my blog series, just didnt feel like writing about some lameass comm atm^^

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IHCS - Extraordinary
Created 26th June 2008 16:25 (Updated: 26th June 2008 16:27)

IHCS is a truly unique league in the circle of DotA community, no league is so small and so famous at the same time, and there's a reason for this, did you ever wonder where people like Maelk, Drayich, Vigoss and Loda play, when they are not fighting in tournaments or LANs? Well IHCS is the answer to that question, no other league has that many high class players and such a high average level of skill, the dimensions are astonishing, the forum has over 11 thousand registered accounts, yet only 500 people are vouched in IHCS2, even less are vouched in IHCS1, a really big part of the vouch requests gets denied because people are simply not ready to play in the environment of IHCS2/1 and are able to keep up with the elite of DotA.
Even though IHCS is still one of the younger leagues, the owner and creator of the league, Russia Lego- has contributed more stuff to the competitive scene than any other admin, he was the first admin who took his league completely to GGC and IRC and he developed an outstanding bot-script, even the game mode -rd and the ap-draft is directly influenced and particularly invented by him.

I could go on telling you facts about IHCS and give you more information, but Lego- published an article 'On the Histoy of IHCS', which i would like to quote here:




So, if you think you are ready to play at the top of your skill, and if you can prove that you are worthy being included into such a prestigious league and measure your skill with the top-notch players of the world, go visit us at the IHCS forums!


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Usagi- @ 2 years ago
Hope you're doing fine out there :)
 
LML @ 2 years ago
hört sich ziemlich scheisse an>_>'
 
LML @ 2 years ago
arg:d
aber alles gut überstanden?:o
 
LML @ 2 years ago
wie wärs mal wieder mit nem blog, wie es so ohne gaming läuft?:)
fand es eigentlich immer sehr interessant.
 
ereskigal @ 3 years ago
Jo schon etwas länger, hab schon 2 wc3 GosuCups organisiert.

Joa son bisschen halt. Uni ist jetzt einschätzbar geworden, und Lernphase ist ab Freitag auch wieder vorbei =)

Wie geht's dir? Mit deinem Leben soweit im Reinen?
 
Zeyall @ 3 years ago
ne ich hab mir nur deine kurve angeschaut und musste kurz lachen. aber bei mir siehts auch mies aus. :/
 
Zeyall @ 3 years ago
You kinda failed at betting :F
 
Vilda @ 3 years ago
Well, back then I was sleeping. Now I'm not.
 
Genie @ 3 years ago
yoyo. nah well i'll be traveling some to our IFNG's and other events of ours inside germany :) will tell you if i go to berlin
 
LordWeird @ 3 years ago
Yes, I guess you could say that, though I'm not sure for how much longer. :\
 

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