I retired from the Internet-Gaming scene, the stuff got way too addictive for me, and i cant go on like this, because its threatening my health and my ability to live my life. I'm particularly a wreck, unable to perform simple tasks or fulfill given assignments because of the total absence of motivation, I'm in ambulant treatment by a Psychologist and I joined a group of people with the same addiction which try to get rid of their gaming-habit.
I was playing pc-games extensively for almost 10 years and i paid a high toll, now I'm sitting in front of the wreck, that was my life and i got 2 chances: Make it or break on it, I hope for the first one, but if I cant make it, I will go with the latter.
I will cut the internet access on my laptop to help me to overcome this habit, i will have internet access on another computer to do necessary stuff (i need to find a new flat, i need to schedule dates with my therapist etc), I hope that i will overcome my habit and that i can be an example for other gaming-addicts, quitting the internet-gaming hurts like hell and i already miss sooo many people even though I'm not even gone yet, i wish all you people, that have been around with me the best of luck and maybe we can see each other again under happier circumstances.
For e-challenge.ch matters, talk with IronMan, Kyakon or DL|Nova/Ronin.
If there are any open matters, that need to be addressed, email me at mnarinder@gmx.de
Frida, I'm sorry and i miss you! I still think it could've worked out, maybe someday.....
Love has teeth;
they bite;
the wounds never close.
No word, no combination of words, can close those lovebites.
It's the other way around, that's the joke. If those wounds dry up, the words die with them.
Take it from me.
I've made my life from the words, and I know that is so. Stephen King King - The Body